Well, it's Reading Week and I've spent SO many hours reading my textbooks. So you know what? It's time for a break! The drama of my life is literally ceaseless. But I'm not even sure I can post Episode 23! I mean, I protect the identities by using single letters... but some things just have to remain secret. There are two incidences in mind involving two separate girls, due to present circumstances, if the information were to be released, lives would be forfeit (I'm pretty sure my own would be as well). So, alas, Episode 23 shall be locked away until such a time warrants it's writing. Until then, Episode 22 shall have to do. And I think I'll share with you "The Lost Episodes" - stories of my tales with women from the very early age of 5 years. You think the drama in my life started just when I was in Grade 8? HA! I've had interesting things happen between girls and myself ever since I began to desire them! Okay, so my early childhood isn't filled with pregnancies, miscarriages, infidelity, threesomes, and false allegations, but I can only do so much! Anyway, that is for another time. Here we go.

*The Wonderful World of Ryan* [Episode 22]
::Rejection::
>>December 2004>>

Alright. This episode is about RT. By December, we've become really good friends. She visits me almost every night sometime between midnight and 2am. We goto movies (she clutched my arm during "The Grudge"), we watched the lunar eclipse together... we just had lotsa fun. And I was really taken in by her. But I knew she didn't feel the same way, but I decided to go for it anyhow.

It was December 2nd, and we went to the bar with a couple other friends for some fun times and dancing. Throughout the night, before the dancing, I made two verbal advances which she subsequently shot down. I cannot remember one of them, but the second one went something like this.

RT: (at the lack of guys in the establishment at 9:30pm) "It sucks that no one here could be my future boyfriend"
Me: "What about me?"
RT: (laughs)

You get the picture. Anyway, on the dance floor... The four of us were dancing, and this guy pops in and starts dancing with us. Hideous! It made me nauseous to look at him! But he definately had eyes on RT. So I finally muscled up the courage to make a couple more advances, just to let her know of my affections. This time, however, they would be physical. Twice I would start dancing closer to her, and twice she was receptive and we would be almost bumpin-and-grindin together when she'd pull away (reminiscent of A's behaviour in Episode 6). So I didn't really stay too much longer after that. I knew if I left, hideous upside-down-triangle-for-a-face guy would make his move and that they would hook up. But I admitted defeat.

So I left. Next day I tried to talk to her very little. But I was curious to see if my prediction was correct (I had 100% accuracy of my predictions to that point, so I really didn't doubt my ability - but I need each prediction confirmed nonetheless). So I asked if they had kissed. Apparently, he had walked her back to her room and yes, they kissed. Ouch, did my heart ever snap hearing that! So I spent the next 3 days extremely angry and avoiding her. Finally, she approached me, asking me why I was in such a bad mood. She eventually got it out of me. I told her I liked her alot and that I had made four advances towards her that night and she shot me down every time. She apologized... she didn't think she was rejecting me. She's under the impression that if I knew she would reject me, then it wasn't rejection... I still don't understand her logic!

Anyway, the midnight visits stopped - oh how I miss them! We still goto movies, but it's still just as friends. And she's still going out with upside-down-triangle-head. Oh, and the story isn't over! Watching her the last couple months with this guy has made me so quite glad I didn't get together with her! And here's why.

From day 1, she wanted to dump him. She appears to be commitment-phobic that way. Anyway, several times over the next two months, she explained it to me this way: When she was with him, she felt good and happy. But when she wasn't with him, she wanted to break up with him. Their time together goes a lil something like this.

1. Get together
2. Sitting together
3. Watch TV or talk about things like 'doors' (I'm not making this up!)
4. Poking each other
5. Making out
6. She makes up some excuse to get away from him

We're STILL not done! She thinks that at the end of April, when school's out and they both go their separate ways, he's gonna be fine just breaking it off there. I told her to talk to him about it, cuz I really don't think he'd be fine with that. Here's my observations.

1. Within the first week of them going out, he bought her a dozen roses. For no apparent reason (yes girls, you can all "awwwww!")
2. He called her quite often (signs of clinginess that RT didn't enjoy, but she wants to be the "New"-RT so she dealt with it - mostly by ignoring her phone). His calls seem to have decreased significantly in number, so I think he's gotten the hint there. Regardless,
3. He made reservations two weeks in advance for Valentine's Day.
4. On Valentine's Day, he gave her a card - in which he wrote a nice lil thing that I'm not even sure he meant to rhyme (cuz the first two lines didn't rhyme). We'll give him the benifit of the doubt that he meant to rhyme, just cuz he seems to be such a sweetheart (a pothead, but a sweatheart nonetheless). Anyway, he basically said she was the most beautiful girl he's ever seen, and that beauty isn't just skin deep (now, THAT line usually means she's NOT the most beautiful girl he's ever seen). And there was a bunch of crap I don't remember.
5. Also for V-Day, he gave her a necklace! I have yet to see said necklace to determine its worth. Hopefully he didn't spend any more than $10 on it, cuz he's gonna be in for a rude awakening when RT says goodbye in April.
6. Last but not least, he's invited her to meet his parents in Cold Lake! What kind of guy in his right mind would invite his girlfriend to meet his parents if he knows the relationship's not going anywhere and is gonna be over in April?!

If he knows it's over in April like she says he knows... he must think he's gonna be gettin sex. Cuz I know of no guy who would be in a relationship that's going nowhere - either physically or not. She's somehow okay with having meaningless relationships, and THAT'S why I'm glad I'm not dating her! There's a difference between one-night-stands for fun and five-month-stands for fun.

Anyway, I'm done ranting. Have a good night!